why do i wake day after day wondering if....and why....
i live every day like it were my last, i have had alot of things happen to me that i cant change, my eye is permanent i cant ever fix that. well i can but i wont it is a reminder of one of those what ifs.. i have fallen in love and fallen back out of love that would be one of the whys... why do i torment my self by doing these things. falling in love pfftt... i was told once that it was for fools and they were right. i keep telling myself not to do it but i do then i get smacked in the face by reality and its gone... ehh life goes on.. i look back at this year and realized i have done alot of great things not just for me but for others.. my kids are amazing..my family is amazing....my friends are amazing....the memories i have are wonderful and i dont regret any of them i just wonder what if and why sometimes things happen the way they do
