And so ends a friendship....
Where do I start? Hell I don't even know. I've tried to figure this out. Tried to write it, and yet I get a few sentences in and decide to delete it. I'll probably do that to this. I guess I should of ran away alot sooner then I did. But yet I stuck around. Don't even know why really. The more I spent time with her, the deeper I got. And well it does suck, to hang out with someone that you know you can't be with. But yet I still put myself in that situation, in that pain for just that little hope that maybe, just maybe we could be. She knew how I felt about her, and yet she did nothing about it. She should of said something you know. Yeah I know she'll say I didn't lead you on did I. As soon as she told me about how he was treating her, I knew I had to walk away. Really, what would you have done if you were in my shoes? Me seperated from my wife, you in the military and us hanging out cuddling, staying over. Then I tell you all the wrongful things she does, and spill my soul to you. Then after a while, she starts to open her eyes, and starts being sweet again. Would you stay, or would you have walked away. So see this ain't something that just came up. It's for the best but I guess she can't see it. Hell I told some of my friends, what was going on, and most of them told me to walk away. She's right about something, you can't help who you have feeling for, and you can't make someone change them either. I did tell her I would still be her friend, I just wouldn't hang out with her. Then she got all bent out of shape about that. Really, I don't know about you guys, but I don't cuddle with my friends, I don't go in there bedroom and watch movies, or sleep in the same bed as them. I'm not in the room, when they are changing either. And she expects me to come over. WHAT THE FUCK! Why would you want someone to keep coming over, after they already told you how they felt? And you tell them that it's friends or nothing. And yet when I choose nothing, she got all pissy. Then she brings her son into it, saying what am i suppose to tell him, that armando can't be friends with us no more b/c of her husband. I told her I don't know what to tell him. Hell I know now, you can tell him I'm busy or I'm working nights now. What would you have told him, if I found someone else? I'm sorry, but if I had found someone else, did she honestly think I would be spending time with her and him all the time. No, I don't think so I would be with my girl. Unless my girl was doing her thing, then I would probably be with my boys. So really I'm still kind of confused why she got all bent out of shape about me not wanting to hang out with her. And just cuz I'm quite, when I am over there don't mean nothing. Maybe I just don't have nothing to say. I guess she thought she knew me, only after 5 months. . Hell some of my closest friends, don't even really know me. And those that do know me, know not to keep pressing an issue. If I tell you I'm fine and I don't have anything on my mind then don't keep asking me. Leave it alone! It's better this way, but I guess she doesn't believe that.
And so a friendship ends...
