I am going to put it out there for everyone to see cause I really dont care anymore. I am not a happy person I may act like I am but I am not, I have not been happy about myself my life etc in over 3 years now. I do not have many freinds ones I would call true friends cause 98% of the time I end up sitting at the bar by myself because none of the people I know want to go and hang out or anything. I have quit smoking for over a month now and it has been hard for me to keep on going cause shit just keeps getting better and better. If it was not for my son I probably would have gone insane by now.

I am lonely and very bored with my life I try to make it more exciting but there is only so much you can do ALONE all the time. It seems like the only women that take interest in me are the FAT ones, I dont mean ya know a little chubby that I can handle. I mean the ones that robbed a hostes truck, the ones that are 5'2" tall and 5'2" around sorry but I cant date a bowling ball.

Other than that I am actually a nice person just tired of being treated like an inaminate object in the world.